The decision to quit Blog 365 was a huge decision for me. I am incredibly stubborn and am so completely not a quitter. I know that sounds cliche but you have to understand that once I make a committment to something, well, there’s just no letting it go. None. Out of the ten plays that were produced by my high school while I was a student there I was in…all ten. And you know what? For the last eight of them I was so miserable I almost gave myself an ulcer but I stuck with it because I wanted to look back at graduation and say that I had done every show I could. I lived in Vegas for three years even though I completely hated it and wanted to move about a month and a half after I got there. That’s how committed I am to…um…commitment. How I managed to not marry my first boyfriend is still a mysterious miracle (not that we were together long enough for him to ask, thank God).

The point is, I committed to the whole Blog 365 thing. Wholeheartedly. For six months. But you know, for a few of those six months I completely resented that I was blogging because I felt like I had to instead of because I wanted to. And I was kind of mad that there was so much stuff on my blog that was just…terrible. While I was redoing my site, I kept wavering on “should I keep doing Blog 365?” and really, the only reason to keep doing it was because I don’t quit things.

So I decided that I have officially become too old (the big 3-0 is next Monday) to let that be the only reason I do something. I took a deep breath and said “okay. I’m quitting Blog 365.” It was a monumental moment. Poppy was so impressed that she yawned and fell off the edge of the bed.

Then, Saturday night, when I was showing Will the new site design (and, okay, hopping around and squealing like I was five and saying “look! look what I maaaaaaaaaaaade!”) and having him read the “first” entry he said “You’re quitting Blog 365? Awwwwwww…. why do you want to do that? I was so proud that you were blogging every day! Are you sure you want to quit? You were doing so well!”

So I smothered him with his keyboard.

The thing is, even though I have decided that I’m not doing Blog 365 anymore, once you’ve blogged every day for six months, you start to feel itchy at the idea of skipping a day. Technically I haven’t skipped a day yet as I republished my site reeeeeeeeeally early on Sunday.

But it’s still nice knowing that I’m sitting here typing this because I want to.