Is anybody else really looking forward to this year’s NaBloPoMo?  I mean, sure they’ve expanded it so you can do it every month if you want and then there’s that whole Blog 365 thing (that I failed MISERABLY in 2008) but for me November is always NaBloPoMo month.  And I am really looking foward to it this year.  The first year sucked and was hard.  Last year it didn’t phase me much at all and this year I’m looking forward to it so that maybe, hopefully, I can get some of my blogging mojo back.

I FINALLY finished two Bloggers’ books: Julie and Julia and Rage Against the Meshugenah: Why it Takes Balls to Go Nuts.  I think it says something about me that, even though I was not a follower of either blogger, I still had to buy their books because they are Bloggers.  I am not sure what it says exactly but I’m sure it says something…probably “this girl is too into that blogging thing”.  I liked both books very much (though I’ll admit that I like the movie of Julie & Julia better than I liked the book) and they did what good books always do: made me want to jump right on this here blog and type type type my brilliance into a blog post.

Of course, actually being brilliant would probably help a lot.

I have said it over and over again–my problem is not a lack of ideas.  It is mostly a lack of confidence to put them in writing–which could be a blog post all by itself.  When I can’t sleep I can think of a bunch of things to write about.  When I’m out and about there is inspiration everywhere.  But then I get home and my inner censor goes “not good enough, the moment has passed, that’s too controversial, don’t tempt fate,  that will surely end up with at least one of your in laws on the phone in a snit, don’t write about that – your MOM reads this!” and a bunch of other excuses.  So really, the biggest problem is me and my reluctance to grow the eff up and say “you know what? I’m an adult.  I pay for this space.  It’s mine.  If you don’t like what I have to say just don’t read it!”

At least I know what the problem is.  Now I just have to grow some balls. Are those available through Amazon do you think?  ‘Cause I have a gift certificate…